The Best Mistake Of My Life

Stalled beyond the mist of error lies a common mean
A past that tends to haunt me in the darkest of my dreams
Reduced me to a candle flicker of my former self
And left me with no lasting earthly wealth

A twist of fate confined within a cell of hopeless thought
The bars that steal the dreams of men and render them for naught
The miserable calamity of my incarceration
Proved to be the soul of my salvation

The ins and outs and ups and downs have taught me many things
Provided me the strength to brave the storms that trials bring
I’m thankful for the years of angry bitterness and strife
‘Cause in the end they only help me make
The best mistake of my life

I’ve battled with the bottle and the fists of other men
Bore witness to the hellish fury of a scorned woman
I bear the scars of railroad tires upon a lonely track
And know that broken hearts start with a crack

The mood of my emotion all but hides the hand that binds
Let go of consequential thoughts that long have plagued my mind
I came to the conclusion that I’d better start by trying
Get busy living or get busy dying

The ins and outs and ups and downs have taught me many things
Provided me the strength to brave the storms that trials bring
I’m thankful for the years of angry bitterness and strife
‘Cause in the end they only help me make
The best mistake of my life

The music of nostalgia floats upon the winds of change
And blows a past of blame I wish that I could rearrange
But if regret meant I would have to disregard the facts
I don’t think I would take a single back

Every wrong decision I’ve made had the quality
Of making me the humble man that I was meant to be
I’ve seen the vast expanse of nothingness through these pale eyes
And in the end I’ve come to realize

The ins and outs and ups and downs have taught me many things
Provided me the strength to brave the storms that trials bring
I’m thankful for the years of angry bitterness and strife
‘Cause in the end they only help me make
The best mistake of my life.

If I

If I could live just one day
I'd live that day for you
And with the air my lungs took in
I'd sing a farewell tune
How life and love had crippled me
How precious you turned out to be
How words and friends had left me broken
And how they got the best of me

And if I lived just one day
Maybe I would say that summer steals
And then go on to say that maybe
Life is a dream, and dreams can't heal
And if I knew that this would be
The last time I could be with you
My touch would speak in velvet ripples
Savoring our last adieu

And when the time between us exhales
Leaving me to join the wind
If I can pass you as a warm breeze
Think of me and smile again
If I had one gift to give you
Let it be my poetry
The greatest gift I have to offer
Reveals perfected anarchy

If I could lead, I'd lead you free
If you would follow, I'd proceed
Guiding you through revelry
To where I stay when skies turn grey
If that's the way then way be paved
We're gone for better yesterdays
Upon the lies, a hide of eyes
Angelic anthem recognized

If I could die, I'd die tonight
And take from ground like birds to flight
Carees me down behind the light
And tell me it will be alright
If I, if I, I know we tried
That much I know before our time
My face left bruised by something loose
In streets and backseat romance.

Damaged

Yesterday's so far away
I can't diguise my fatal ways
In all I do, in all I say
My kiss is bitter with cocaine

Each time is different, each time the same
And it never stops and you go insane
And it speaks and I'm sorry you can't understand
Simple splendors - delightful, demonic - entranced

What once petrified me, were grisly discoveries
What once were pure concepts, are now beastial experiments
What lacked common sense was made up for in dance
Where my feet floated free in a postmortem trance

Further from you could be gummed up and chewed
Wouldn't dying in mystery be fun?
Dum diddy diddy dum dum.

Ode To The Dawn

Lies, all lies!
Ushas, where's your shine?
I love to run within your walls
Until the noon sunrise

Carry me through to the bounds of your laughter
And wallow your way to the heights of the moon
Kidnap me from the grasp darkness is sweeping
And wake me again when your rays expel doom

(Swift me off gently and whisper the seasons)

The kiss your lips drip shell the dawn's dew in honey
And the warmth you possess still possesses again
But what of the time when we meet on grounds no more?
I'll be at your side then, forever the end.