Alone As I Pretend

Consecrate this man
To the world I stand alone again as I pretend
Will it never end?
Obligations voice their change of plans
Maybe I should have ran
Away
As strands of time unwind
Like rotting fruit of my own mind
There rusting on the vine
Delusion grips my hand
These cantaloupe reminders fade
In fields of marmalade

I am alone as I pretend

I am not really here
It’s only fear that draws me near
Obscure dream coming clear
My pain too cold to bare
This journey seems to lead nowhere
I’m spinning wheels I swear

I am alone as I pretend

It’s not expected my brokenness will mend
Transcending spiritual scare tissue, I pretend

Consecrate this man
To the world I stand alone again as I pretend
And it won’t ever end
Obligations voice their change of plans
I’m sure I should’ve ran
Away
As strands of time unwind
Like rotting fruit of my own mind
There rusting on the vine
Delusion grips my hand
These cantaloupe reminders fade
In fields of marmalade
In fields of marmalade … in fields of marmalade.